Conversations with a Narcissist
They run corporations and governments. They commit evil acts beyond comprehension for the sensitive soul but aren’t just out there. They are our parents, partners, lovers, and family. Conversations spiral for hours like a dog chasing my tail. I’ve spent years, decades, in the mental blender of covert, passive-aggressive abuse. These are my audio files of consensually recorded conversations with my now ex-husband of 19 years. May you learn from my naivety, oversharing, exhaustion, and pain. May this love never find you; if it has, may you have the strength to prevail. Welcome to Conversations with a Narcissist.
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Episodes
Friday Mar 21, 2025
Thursday Mar 20, 2025
Thursday Mar 20, 2025
Recorded March 18, 2025
“I’d rather be dead than afraid.” Martin Luther King Jr.
Grounded in reality, I see shades of humanity; may our hearts, minds, and bodies heal for this is the greatest work of all.
Saturday Mar 15, 2025
Sunday Mar 09, 2025
Saturday Mar 08, 2025
Saturday Mar 08, 2025
Recorded January 30, 2025
I am well acquainted with the grief process, and this is my day of acceptance. My mind is relentless, not to fix him, but for my journey and breaking the cycles of abuse in my family.
We cannot heal that which we cannot label or identify. I needed to understand why we had these experiences for my own healing, protection, and education of my children. This recording gave me the answers I needed to accept what I could not change.
People have not one but two paths on a spiritual journey that is only revealed with age. By the time a person is in their 70s, they are delightful or awful. There is very little middle ground. The multitude of choices you make every single day create the journey. Make better choices.
Friday Mar 07, 2025
Friday Mar 07, 2025
Recorded June 6, 2024
I’m not even sure who he is at this point. I was shocked by his lack of memory, clarity of memory, and “new awareness.” He changed the game, but I couldn’t see it yet.
Thursday Mar 06, 2025
Thursday Mar 06, 2025
Recorded May 18, 2024
I don’t believe that reactive or justified abuse is acceptable, it’s understandable but not acceptable. I have been working to respond rather than react for over 20 years. I f’ing tried. I tried so hard. The only thing I knew to do is quit talking.
Wednesday Mar 05, 2025
Wednesday Mar 05, 2025
Recorded April 13, 2024
Covert behavior is so difficult to identify. Every conversation is essentially the same. More apologies. More promises that never happen.
Tuesday Mar 04, 2025
Monday Mar 03, 2025
Monday Mar 03, 2025
Recorded March 14, 2024
This would’ve been our 20th wedding anniversary. March 15, the next day was our one year divorce anniversary.
The pettiness… wow. Picking a fight with his daughter. She ignores him. In our home, everyone is responsible for their own laundry. Instigators be instigating. Lol!