Conversations with a Narcissist

Season 2 Trailer

Coming March 14, 2025

The Mask Comes Off

Recorded January 30, 2025
I am well acquainted with the grief process, and this is my day of acceptance. My mind is relentless, not to fix him, but for my journey and breaking the cycles of abuse in my family. 
We cannot heal that which we cannot label or identify. I needed to understand why we had these experiences for my own healing, protection, and education of my children. This recording gave me the answers I needed to accept what I could not change. 
People have not one but two paths on a spiritual journey that is only revealed with age. By the time a person is in their 70s, they are delightful or awful. There is very little middle ground. The multitude of choices you make every single day create the journey. Make better choices. 

Poop Issues

Recorded June 6, 2024
I’m not even sure who he is at this point. I was shocked by his lack of memory, clarity of memory, and “new awareness.” He changed the game, but I couldn’t see it yet.

Reactive Abuse

Recorded May 18, 2024
I don’t believe that reactive or justified abuse is acceptable, it’s understandable but not acceptable. I have been working to respond rather than react for over 20 years. I f’ing tried. I tried so hard. The only thing I knew to do is quit talking.

Pink Glitter Shoes

Recorded April 13, 2024
Covert behavior is so difficult to identify. Every conversation is essentially the same. More apologies. More promises that never happen.

Anti-Team Work

Recorded March 16, 2024
Nothing is easy.

Almost Anniversary

Recorded March 14, 2024
This would’ve been our 20th wedding anniversary. March 15, the next day was our one year divorce anniversary.
The pettiness… wow. Picking a fight with his daughter. She ignores him. In our home, everyone is responsible for their own laundry. Instigators be instigating. Lol!

3D: Exploitation of Labor

Recorded January 18, 2024
Quite frankly, I don’t care is someone doesn’t have empathy, just be honest, don’t play stupid games, and handle your responsibilities. We have children. I wasn’t trying to have a relationship. I was trying to provide for our family.
We all interact with narcissists, and most of the time it’s not a problem but he would actively destroy anything I created, UNLESS he was at the center. I never launched the business in this episode.

Holding Space

Recorded October 12, 2023
Our vibe or energy is contagious. We become what we are around or we become very self-aware and learn to play the game.
We travel the spiritual journey alone. In the aloneness, we find ourselves. Narcissists find a void. Both are on an internal spiritual journey, but only one can see a world or people outside themselves. 
If you deeply care about people, spaces, and injustice, you are not a narcissist, even if you haven’t been able to recently show that you care because you’ve been in survival. They have a tendency to sabotage your life so that you are always in survival and can only focus on yourself and your family, and you still feel like you’re drowning.
Two weeks after this recording, I closed the doors to my business, The Soul Crew. I felt like there was another narcissist behind every mask. I went to the wilderness alone.

Validating Validation

Recorded September 20, 2023
OMG. JUST ASK A FCKING QUESTION. This cycle is so painful. He would express care and ask questions, to get me to open up. Then, at my most vulnerable moment, he attacks. He has read dozens of books on communication and self-help but only got worse.
*My understanding of narcissism in this recording is not correct.
Narcissists have two types of desires, goals, or supply. In the first phase, they seek validation and admiration. In the second phase, they seek sadistic supply. Because he wasn't getting narcissistic supply from me, he switched to sadistic supply, my frustration.