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Recorded March 14, 2024

This would’ve been our 20th wedding anniversary. March 15, the next day was our one year divorce anniversary.

The pettiness… wow. Picking a fight with his daughter. She ignores him. In our home, everyone is responsible for their own laundry. Instigators be instigating. Lol!

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Recorded March 14, 2024

This would’ve been our 20th wedding anniversary. March 15, the next day was our one year divorce anniversary.

The pettiness… wow. Picking a fight with his daughter. She ignores him. In our home, everyone is responsible for their own laundry. Instigators be instigating. Lol!