Confusion with Trust and Leadership

Recorded July 12, 2020.

I could not understand how he could not see everything I was doing to keep our household and business operating. My prior career was consulting, speaking, and writing; he was joining me in a new venture. I had charts and graphs to explain our leadership, relationship, and cycles, but the acceptable standard constantly shifted.

I work too much. I don't work enough. We never had enough money, and he wouldn't work or hold a job. He was supposed to care for our children for many years but didn't put much effort there either. I was quick to shut down conversations because I already knew that we would not make actual progress.